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Why Did I Let Myself Go?

 


Can I honestly blame them,
When I’m the one who lowered my guard,
Made choices I knew were wrong,
Just because someone suggested so?

Do I not know who I truly am,
What my values are, my beliefs?
For the sake of fleeting connection,
I sold my soul, my love, my peace.

Why did I fear my own power,
Turn away from my divine light?
I let the noise shape my image,
And shrink myself out of sight.

How did I become so unrecognizable,
Letting my dreams and desires die?
All for temporary setbacks,
For moments that passed me by.

I craved understanding from those,
Who could never see my place,
Yet I kept on seeking, kept on bending,
Chasing approval in their space.

How can others believe in me,
When I can’t even believe in myself?
I let my voice drown in whispers,
And left my true power on the shelf.


~ Kanika Kaushal ✨ The Luminous Muse

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